samedi 14 octobre 2017

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are you an idol or an icon? why should you be objectified or given any name? any treatment?
you're not a fish - you're not a girl - you're not the sea - you're not the sky - who gives a shit who what you are
you are you are you are and if you're out there, are we responsible at any moment? are we of anything? we're not of you, we are
i get urges, sexual, destructive, why am i attracted to you, you don't deserve this, please weight my worth
being is hard, and beings clashing is insufferable, but it's essential, i completely forgot what it is and i guess in a way it is the way i wanted it to be, and i know you will be everything i'm not expecting of you
for that thank you
but i won't write or speak any other word, any other formula well too known, i'll write it anyway though, i'm eagerly waiting for the day, and the longer it takes the better
i can begin to describe what i'll do to you on that day
it will be the day i empty it all
it will be the day i shout to make your ears split
it will be the day you cry for more
it will be the day i cease watching myself from afar and i'll lose it all inside of you
but who cares who cares who cares

vendredi 13 octobre 2017

chopo jensa notes

C'est une fille qui me trouve bizarre. C'est marrant et ironique non? C'est une... marche, sûrement, je veux déjà y rester, je veux déjà la vouloir et vouloir y rester, déjà.
L'ego a peur de mourir mais il a vraiment peur de vivre. Goddamn! masturbating feels good.
It feels too good. Suffering from the fact that it's an illusion.
Les choses changent tout le temps, et rien ne reste pareil... mais si le changement induit le chaos - si le chaos est répétition - si nous ne sommes à aucun instant la personne d'avant, = boulimie, étirement, vitesse, fatigue, freins,
et si tu refuses de dormir, si j'ai juste envie de penser à toi, peut-être ne devrais-je pas parler de toi, mais je ferai ce que   mes sentiments me disent. et je n'écouterai ni n'agirai pour l'ego
core = corps  monde matériel inévitable    ce n'est pas que j'y suis pour rien, c'est que tu n'es pas tout

samedi 5 novembre 2016

'Emotional Circumconscient' [novel] [wip] - 7

Partie 2

"Social Anxiety"

Chapitre 12

 Blue Girl is crying. Yoshi feels profound empathy for her, so approaches to smoosh her and hold her tight in comfort. But at night, Yoshi feels pain. Yoshi bays at the red moon in the dark night depths, spitting red flames of anger and hate.


the next day...

'this sweet sound getting to my ears is the music of my lifetime.
once i go deaf, doesn't mean death. there are songs for the deaf.
get out of the matrix, go back... or don't..........'

'every song has an end. please don't download
illegally. you can buy it on itunes, beatport,
spotify, your ass, your mom's ass, fuck you.'

 Yoshi brings Blue Girl to SIM CITY. To cheer her up, he takes her to Dissuko '48 Fest!, an evening music event popular in town. On the way to the place, Blue Girl is challenged in a Pokémon fight by random npc Zalinera the Thief.
 Upon arriving, japanese selectah MISOBEATS is playing trance house music in the indie tent. Further outside, DJ Toplu gets booed by the audience when dropping premiere of his latest single "I Ain't Aphex Bro (featuring PAC-MAN)", of course to disappointment when he expected a sincere yet positive reaction to it.
 A bit later, headliners Los Marijuaneros enter the main stage. The crowd cannot wait and hops up and down to the preview track's beat in expectation of a great show. Los Marijuaneros is a multi-ethnic all-girls five piece band that create and play a blend of music like you'd never imagined before.


in the meantime...

-"fuck! i hate this! hate my life!
-why do i even exist! mario brothers... the fuck i'd care!!"

 Farther away is Waluigi sitting on a bench, going in and around in a park, mumbling rage and despication towards his fragile ego. While protesting at his thoughts, Waluigi is surprised by a crazy-looking green dog 'wawa!-ing at him, and in a fuse blow unexpectedly assaults the puppy shooting it down with an AK-47. And then peaks upon realisation of the act. [fig.1=pathetic.]
 But doggy ain't dead.

-"....kk...herr...her herr!!
-you think you killed me?
-...
-with your weak ass gun?
-you can't even fire balls, stupid moron!"

 Waluigi's malefic instincts awaken.

-"shit dog... you stepped in dog shit!" *sllrrp!!*
-"Gaaaaahahahahaaa!!!
-doggystyle! doggy!!"

 Waluigi's gone nuts. Surrounded by a halo of green light, descending as a beam down doggy, the reborn slave pet addresses his bully:

-"you're such a loser, waluigi. not because i say so.
-but because i say so." 

 And saying so, something indescribable happens to Waluigi, who feels shattered and torn by an unbearable pressure, completely trapped in a void dimension, kept at the verge of an eternal sufferance. Himself can't tell if he understands what sort of spell he's fell under, but drowned in despair, Waluigi barks from the limbs of hell:

-w...WAIT! N... no... i'm... I'M EXPENDABLE! PLEASE DON't... just FORGET ME!" 

Falling in an endless pit Waluigi opens his mouth, and sticking his tongue out, an upside-down L engraves itself on it, causing the worst pain. That's when he hears the last bit of voice that will drive him mad for abstract eternity:

i'm gonna trap you  in these lines...
and you are going to stay here.
you won't even see the end of this novel! ha!
that's for thinking you can do whatever...

...like freely killing me just because, in fact,
you hate yourself.
bitch.

jeudi 3 novembre 2016

'Emotional Circumconscient' [novel] [wip] - 6

Partie 2

"Social Anxiety"

Chapitre 11

 The six apostles are: the Dog - Yoshi - Akarin - Kirby - Lil B - Pikachu

 Vaati is the Eye. Veran is the Beast. Dreamy Bowser is the Nightmare/the Golem/the Chimaera.
 Thiana is the leader of her own girls-gang. Here we see Zelda and Inkling Girl, who work with her. The girls-gang also involves Blue Girl (-or Blue-Haired Girl) and others, and Akarin (title: 'la mama del món') is the head of it all (of it ALL). Mario, and Link, are here too.

*


 i am fronting the blank page. i want to start working, i need to let it out, that's it.
i got it all, i'm alone, i have enough (i have right now), yet i don't feel it yet.
but it's coming. soon enough. you realize it after a while, after it already made sense...

I AM A ROCK.

everything goes so fast. everything went so fast. if i could i'd cry but it's too late... i'm not an idea anymore.
 
 
 
-"Get through this screen. 
Learn - to revalue your life. 
Heavens don't wait, take your chance...
Save your thanks for later."-


...GNITIAW EB TSUM UOY                                                                
                                                                 YOU MUST BE WAITING... 


* 

 Blue-Haired Girl has a near life experience during orgasm. (bird sleeps)

 -*sigh* "I have to work tomorrow..." says she laying back, catching back her breath, and dream-gazing at the Moon. (bird wakes and )shouts

In the morning, Blue-Haired Girl takes the train to go somewhere. She's really tired because she's been staying up late for some time. Looking outside the window, the train passes in front of various landscapes. A green-slimed mountain sees Yasuna Blue-Haired Girl and winks at her. She freaks out.

 *

 Alien is working on some new-era music with PACMAN. There's a joke here, maybe more.

<3 later="" p="">

SUPER PACMAN hoops like a god. He's all about that HOOP LIFE. Waluigi came expecting a game of tennis. He feels dumbly vexed having brought his tennis racket and nobody giving a fuck about him. CD-i Zelda sarcastically laughs him off for being a scumbag and Waluigi takes it really bad, poor pup. Characters smoke cigarettes and think about a side-story. One cigarette tells how it wants to live a long and healthy life.

-"please don't turn the page."


- T H E W A R O N D R U G S -
creatures summoned back from the dark realm start the genocide on the cigarettes people

mercredi 2 novembre 2016

'Emotional Circumconscient' [novel] [wip] - 5

Partie 1

"Kumbaya... Kumbaya..."

Chapitre 9

-"SAY HELLO, NINJAS!"

 Slippy and Jake were left as mere witnesses. Light was shed: they were living a nightmare.
 Mew... this huge, green being had ended it, had woken them up; but no relief was felt. Each and everything, each and every moment, passed so fast, so suddenly, like strong wind blowing through the pages of a very short book. This book was life, it told a story, but in many different languages and at the same time, and as main characters in it, they didn't have to agree. They didn't agree. And it made them feel... no relief... simple sadness.

 Metal Sonic had come out of the same hole than Mew's and was conversing [*they're actually talking about hot stuff] with a Mega Diancie that seemed linked to all this. Like a mother figure standing above the shelf in its own right, the mythical Pokémon hold power and knowledge over the rest, far from comprehension, far from explanations, far from it all, far from it all. And it made them feel... no relief... simple sadness.

-"i wanna end this... quick.", mumbled Jake, lying curled up on the fake, green grass.
-"good work sons, adressed Metal Sonic. my partner here will bring you back home. our mission is done here."
-"Kaya! Follow me guys!"

 Back home... brought back aboard a big regular spaceship.

-"where did our final epic battle  go  anyways?" asked Jake.
-"..."

*

 "WAS IT EVER INTENDED TO BE ONE?"

That is one incarnation of Veran, Sorceress of Shadows. She represents the yin and is the stuff of King Boo. The "king" attribute of King Boo should not be considered to determine a social status or human-type genre, even so you consider boos as human lives' ghosts; every being is the ghost of another dead. As a part of the Zelda series' bosses hierarchy Veran possesses potential others do not; and here she demonstrates a position of power over them. (Vaati...) What is the line of Veran? Her links to Twinrova or to the Dark Realm? Bee - Fairy - Spider - Turtle  What do they served her for?

 The alien dresses up and smiles

 Finn has a nightmare

 I'm dreaming

 Finn has a nightmare

 Finn wakes up

Chapitre 10

 !! hhh



-"man... what a nightmare..."

 Finn gets out the house, looking for Jake and some fresh air. Jake looks all globby and deflated. The sun is only getting up.

-"hey, Jake! what's up dude? what've you been up to?"
-"Finn... it's you?..."

 Jake gets up and reshapes somehow.

-"man... i'm sure happy to see you..."
-"haha! me too, bro!"


-"I... my head hurts... I went on some creepy adventure... I think... it turned my guts upside   
...down
-my eyes... can't see... anymore... UGH..."

-"what's wrong, Jake?"


what is the problem jake

don't you feel right


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samedi 22 octobre 2016

'Emotional Circumconscient' [novel] [wip] - 4

Partie 1

"Kumbaya... Kumbaya..."

Chapitre 6

 I can see Princess Bubblegum. You can see Princess Bubblegum. She attached her bubblegum hair. She put on a bubblegum dress... under a plain bubblegum moon... and... she waves at...

 Pink bubbles stem closer to the sign that you can't read but reads, "BANDARI".

-In the first dream bubble, Jake, Ling Ling and King Boo get to hit heavily each on their own spliffs. They get high in a team fashion but no frustration is felt by waiting for your bud to pass the bud, as you're not sharing the bud but the satisfaction of getting high with your buds, in the comfort of your space.
-In the second dream bubble, amalgamations of evil representations turn troubled souls into nightmare creatures, for a selfish and unhealthy sake. The obscure and confounding process works in cycles, as once the malicious has poisoned your nervous envelope, you will seek the weak and dazed to pass it on to them, the plague infecting those not ready to fight with the true force of their inner nature.
-In the third and last bubble, we're presented with a concrete example of that, and see how Duckman, Cool Spot and Mordecai were victims of a corrupted system in which they never were intended to remain. Their souls are eternal, their Spirit is Universal; sadness only prevails for them to get the chance to shine through again, in Eternal Glory and Exact Truth Force. For now... may they rest in peace...


Chapitre 7

 Not too far from here, entering Airyforest.
 Jake can't recall what happened during and after that surreal scene with Metal Sonic, Raichu and when that frightening alien head made the world go splurt-boom. Had he switched mindplane-reality once more? Difficult to say, and not super heartening to say the least. It felt... flat. Like a square, not even a box. It felt 2D. He was being patient but it was beginning to be too much to handle.
 Following an image he recognized, in the form of a creature he had shared time and emotions with, he found himself surrounded by Slippy Toad and Wooldoor Sockbat, getting out a gate announcing "entrance" and arriving in the forest. A dark and thick forest presenting many shades of green. Ling Ling, ferociously jumping off a tree, attacks Wooldoor before Jake can even say "eek!" - and gets knocked-out in a single hit by the Sockbat, visibly not impressed at all, laughing off the battle monster's helplessness. Once again, Jake feels uneased by what's happening. Why did Ling Ling attack them? Why did Wooldoor so violently responded, and with such ease? Jake sitting on the floor and trying to remain calm, Wooldoor jumps in his turn on the agonizing orange pet, and noisily licks on its back, to the surprise and consternation of both Slippy and Jake.

-"he went and... licked the back of this poor creature-
-AND NOW THEY DISAPPEARED- this is too CRAZY!!!"

 In a "FLASH!" Ling Ling and Wooldoor had disappeared.
 Slippy and Jake both turn at each other at the same time, in shared awareness.

-"I GOTTA DO IT!! I'M DOING IT!!! I SEE!!
-oh my... please make this work... or i will end my life as humiliated as i've been living it..."


Chapitre 8

 By decapitating and licking the back of Slippy's head, just has Wooldoor had done with Ling Ling, Jake absorbed the naturally produced psychoactive substances present in Slippy's sweat. The power of the hallucinogenic poison induced the most powerful trip; but still one where nobody had any control over anything.

-"...what am I waiting for...?
-...I see you don't need to take the pill."

 Slippy and Jake appeared inside the videostore. The clerk was smoking loud and showing signs of highness that had nothing to do with social status. He didn't even seemed to notice whatever was happening around him. Because what was actually happening was quite the shite: off the TV usually broadcasting product samples and trailers for films or series was coming out a huge gorilla wearing a red tie with his initials on it! Donkey Kong! But this Donkey Kong also wears a strange mask on his face, one that may recall an unobvious ill fate...
 The Kong is advancing towards our couple who rightfully fear the turn of events. The image of a man with yellow eyes pointing a gun at them pop up, and they hear a calm but menacing voice tell:

-"YOU'RE FUCKED."

////////////////////////////////////////////////*PLEASEHOLDON*////////////////////////////////////////////////

-"HOLD YOUR FUCKING HORSES!"

 out of the sky blue screen, the unnameable, indefinable monster - a merged chimera of every representation of the "END", "NIGHTMARE" under each and every one of its forms - the fought, the buried, the persisting repressed evil as consciousness tried to make it appear, except here, physicality had overstepped the mark - and trying to do so... had sealed its own fate, anew... for once but obviously... not for all...

 ...as the fusioned monster gets crushed by a gigantic invoked Ancient Mew.

'Emotional Circumconscient' [novel] [wip] - 3

Partie 1

"Kumbaya... Kumbaya..."

Chapitre 5

 Jake the Dog finds himself inside a museum room with no corners and tall paintings hung on the walls. After witnessing Raichu's appearance, Jake encountered Metal Sonic accompanied by Fionna the Human and Meatwad. Metal Sonic prompted Jake to join them, sensing his apprehension and lack of points of reference; still feeling anxious about the weird turn of events, Jake accepted. And now the four of them were having a reunion in a timeless, unreal exhibition, inside an old, grey building. Jake was way too stressed to participate in the discussion or get what Metal Sonic was speeching about -he obviously had the role of the leader of the group- and eventually got lost in his own worries. Fionna and Meatwad on his right didn't show signs of apprehension for what was about to unfold, repeating "yeah yuuh" agreeing to what was being agreed upon.
 At one point, Jake looks up and sees Metal Sonic standing in front of a cyan-colored door with a big, bright yellow star on it. He adresses everyone and says in his big, mechanic voice:

-"NOW PLEASE FOLLOW ME
FOR THE REASON IS
BEHIND THIS DOOR
AWAITS OUR DESTINY."

 Jake doesn't feel reassured. Metal Sonic continues:

-"BUT BEWARE... BECAUSE OF THE REMINDER THAT 
'THERE ARE NOT ENOUGH POWERS IN THE DAY. HEY. HEY.' 
end of quote."

 They all get outside and immediately fall upon Raichu, the God of Thunder, getting super cracked up by Kracko, the cloudy cyclop monster, super-charging the electric mouse Pokémon by sending super-strong thunder energy directly through its tail. Metal Sonic obviously knows whatever the hell is going on but when trying to interrupt the process, Cool Spot of all jerks appears out of nowhere and shoots a gun at Metal Sonic -who dodges the attack.

-"I found you, Metal Sonic!"

SLASH!

 Those appeared to be Cool Spot's last words, not counting other horrifying sounds coming out his mouth as Fionna's monster glove ripped the insides of his red coin body. Fionna seemingly took satisfaction doing this. Meatwad seemingly wasn't of much use, same as in probably any kind of situation for that matter. Violently throwing Cool Spot on the ground, King Boo emerges out of his body, as he was possessing him, just as he was earlier controlling Mordecai's body.

-"it's too late you BOZOS
let me amorce... مالتا!"

 And in a sky blue screen,
 under a black inverted cross,
 gathering a dark and mysterious power
 out of a blood red third eye,
 the alien head emerged and said
-"let's tear this shit apart..."

*

 An army of Shadow Pokémon, coming out the forest
 They've been given a purpose, an evil one
 They symbolize one being's repressed angst
 They're used to celebrate everyone's demise

 One being's army of Pokémon
 It's been looking for a purpose, a just one
 It represents the ultimate response to an impure logic
 It's used by the will of power, to answer Anger
 With Anger, to ejaculate its final will,
 DEATH

vendredi 21 octobre 2016

'Emotional Circumconscient' [novel] [wip] - 2

Partie 1

 "Kumbaya... Kumbaya..."

Chapitre 3

 Pikachu's watching TV. Precisely, a rerun of a recorded boxing match he had himself disputed some time ago, against Giga Bowser. He lost to the beast, miserably, the fight being resumed in an immediate knock-out from a single punch. The show had become somewhat cult-praised by a handful of geeks still watching television, and Pikachu found some kind of enjoyment coming across the episode when zapping through the channels. He seemed to remain somewhat indifferent though, not being able to recall much of the atual event, not having kept or grown resentment for Giga Bowser, not feeling like complete shit at hearing the showrunner yelling "WTF! the poor guy's dead!" confusing his partially inert body to a truly inert carcass.
 Pikachu's sitting on a geometrically shaped red sofa, in his living room. Smoking a big blunt that makes his head overheat and his perception shiver. There's Wario, sleeping on a couch on the other side of the room. Many inhabitants happily serving Pikachu and being themselves each in their own little world, but still sharing one side of the experience, together. The thing is Pikachu is heavily smoking to actually alter his world, and navigate through deeper stages of present experience. This technique is called "TRIP(advisor)ZONE". It is not a literally difficult thing to mindplane-travel this way, but it has yet a deep insight process to manage getting used to, while embracing another reality. You need trust. And Pikachu arrives in Basedworld. Well now he's Gastly. There's a beach... it's the sea...



That's Mother...


 *

-"maybe i like thinking about you  so what?  fucking..."
                (hate you as much as you'd please...)

 Time is an abstract conception... and what you remember of the lives you undergo, may leave as fragments of an image, a music, or a thought...

I DO NOT DREAM                                                                                                     STAKEHOLDER


Chapitre 4

 Yasuna was staring at the void. And Jake (the Dog) was staring at Yasuna.

-"okay now... FOLLOW ME GUYS!"

 The voice surprised them both and drew their attention to its provenance: Roger. The alien. And in a "BOOM" Jake got ejected out the box, altering all shapes and feelings and blowing his mind with a huge "3D", getting in a universe-bending tunnel where you can be Kirby or Sonic or a dildo and trip your freaking balls out and shout "let's get the hell out of this rotten place!!" but then GET BACK TO EARTH get ejected out of a toilet, altering all understanding of what the fuck just happened and accept to be just left kinda bummed by the fact that for a short time it felt cool but now you're drenched in orange piss and not in an actual neat 3D WORLD. As you'd imagined. You'd wish. Expected.
 And Yasuna wasn't there, nor Roger, meaning Jake was left alone meditating on the door to the outside and what that held for him. Opening the door, opening his eyes, he puts on a circumspect face, and glimpses BMO over a green hill. He runs (the jewels) fast shouting "BMO!!" towards his friend, obviously inebriated by the relief of meeting an acquaintance after an odd and brutal mindplane-travel incident. But as Jake gets to him and asks about his good health, BMO's answer and behavior don't feel right.

-"JAKE...JAKE...DOG"

 BMO starts to physically elevate. Auras of mantras and symbolic forms and patterns appear in surrounding 2D as BMO starts evoking: 

-"alive... 1987 alive... 2017 alive... 2647 alive... 3037"

 Maybe acting as a formula, a bright flash of white light pours out of BMO's front screen in upward direction. The scene is giving Jake the creeps. A very negative and frightening feeling pushes him to transform into a tiny rock to avoid whatever scourge beholds. A clever move as materialized off BMO in a mighty and blinding thunderbolt, a wild Raichu appears. Wild but precisely mad.

'Emotional Circumconscient' [novel] [wip] - 1

Partie 1

"Kumbaya... Kumbaya..."

Chapitre 1

 A day in the life. A day in the Dreamland. A land made of dreams, past and future. A land made for dreams present. A day in the life.
 Today's the first day of a popular festival called "A Fia de la Gosda Weh", which means something I don't understand. But everyone's out living through [chemistry] and probably waiting for something to happen; meaning, sorry, they're making it happen, each one in their one way. It's abstract in that sense, but this world is in every sense.
 So Yasuna's out, she's a bit bummed, she feels pretty sad, it's the late evening and watching the sun go down smoking a spliff way too stuffed, reminiscences of dumb stuff pop up in the emo part of her heart. For anyone, she's probably acting, but that's her way to externalize and actually be able to draw some distance from the day and herself. Still, isn't that spliff too much? As it's the third one lightened by her will in this sun cycle: but that's not her opinion.
 A door opens and Duckman appears and adresses Yasuna:

-"as you can see... i am only what i am. nevertheless... (nevertheless......) ...!"

 The duck, man, breaks the seal and changes into Cool Spot.
 Cool Spot's a cool dude, like, in theory. Here he makes one big entrance and takes the whole page for himself, trying to look G, showing off skills like dunkin', surfin', pilotin' spaceships and taking out his big sword. He obviously thinks he's cool, like why would you call yourself Cool Spot, while not being a douche? He's probably a douche, how couldn't he, but oh the irony, who would call him Douche Spot? Yasuna's got education, I guess, or she just dislikes confrontation, or she's not the type to call out on others, or she's actually simply cooler than a red coin with sunglasses called Cool Spot. And she's gonna say she couldn't care less.

-"...I couldn't care less."

 ...And that being said, she puts words into action and goes fuck herself elsewhere to not care in peace. Yeah... you know it: peace is not on our program today. Enjoying the end of the sunset through a nice view on a nice hilltop, a giant Mecha-Yoshi appears from behind and aims at her by launching its rocket-punches. (Yasuna's got skills: ninja skills.) One of those is to switch places with an inanimate object in a surrounding area of fifty meters, and that's how she dodges Mecha-Yoshi's kinda loose surprise attack, being replaced with a dead log. The robot tried to make pictures of its target, in vain, 'cause her ninja skills are flawless and the log trick worked neatly.


Chapitre 2

-"hi! i'm jake the dog. i will reappear later in this story.
...if it's a story?
-hey! i'm mordecai. this is presumably my only appearance in this novel.
-anyway, hope you'll enjoy."

BANG! BANG! 

 That's the sound of Mordecai's death.
 Shot twice in the chest by none other than Metal Sonic. 
 Why?

-"FUCK!!! this won't end like this... better find the other one... I'M OUTTA HERE!!" 
           
 Words pronounced by King Boo fleeing the corpse of its now defunct host.
 And Metal Sonic flies off, follows the trail of King Boo. The abrupt ending of Mordecai's physical life is simple collateral damage in one's attempt to stop Evil, to stop the ghost, unscrupulously leaving shells behind. But it's none of the two who actually pay the prices. It's none of the two who'll be remembered (?) in the form of a dick-shaped grave, reading 'R.I.P. MORDECAI'.

-"CJ... CJ... CJ!..
.....princess bubblegum? have you seen CJ?
-yes, mordecai. she is mourning your death, right now."

 some things can tend to shine without any explained meaning...

-"wait...wh...what did you say?
-you're dead, dude.
-r...really?!"

 Mordecai's ghost is left voiceless.
 And then disappears.

-"oh, man... am I crazy...? I know this ain't no dream... poor CJ. At least she knows why she's sad... I'm still here wanting to die, watching ghosts disappear under the plain moon light..."

-"i'm sorry CJ... but the blood... it couldn't be scrambled..."

 Those words would echo out infinitely in CJ's mind. It had to come out of nowhere. It took her time to gulp down the association, to let words form and print the image of her boyfriend's death deep in her perfect round eyes. But time... is also an abstract conception, and conjointly failing from top to bottom, CJ's perfect round pupils drop and leave open her brain's salty water valves.
  Mordecai is dead. A world -which one?- shattered, an ocean rain curving a path through past and future memories, and the underpowering balance of fear necessary to the acceptance of events. Of facts. Of a fact. An amalgamated color ocean road pictured down a mirror throat, to help make suffering pass as minor threat...

vendredi 8 mai 2015

Réflexions sur mes rêves 1

- Deux éléments (en dehors de la lumière) reviennent systématiquement dans mes rêves: l'eau et la terre. Jungle, lac, mer, douche, piscine. Souvent des espaces "intérieurs". Souvent très humide.
- Peu, voire aucune élévation. Je ne rêve jamais que je vole; et même si je peux me situer à d'autres niveaux qu'au sol, le plan, la conscience de l'espace, est toujours... directe. 1er degré. Exactement comme la conscience et la représentation de la 3D dans un jeu vidéo en vue à la 3e personne (mes rêves en 1ère personne semblent plus rares).
- Je ne rêve plus pour m'échapper: c'est toujours un dialogue avec mon inconscient. Très simple et clair à interpréter. Ici est la question. Où est le piège? C'est la part la plus obscure de mes rêves car je ne semble pas même capable de la rêver. Où plutôt, la narration bute toujours là où elle est censée: comme si les questions restaient toujours des questions. Les rêves n'apportent-ils pas des réponses, si on considère un dialogue? Le souci de la notion de dialogue est que le langage, symbolique, est déjà rêve, symbolique; si je décide de cesser de prendre le rêve comme communication, il me faut alors atteindre un nouveau niveau de méditation.